Wednesday, February 10, 2010

DH

DH:


U told me that u wanted me to get some lingerie for this month.
U told me it will help if we have fun this time instead of being so focused on a mission like last month.
So we went shopping over the weekend but u could not find anything u like (except a piece in Xixili costing 200 bucks!)
I pointed out some cheaper alternatives and u said they all looked cheap.
I asked u if u liked black or wt designs etc, u just mentioned that u don’t like those with big open straps at the back or an opening in front.
U like sexy yet not trashy.
Then u find this website that sells lingerie, and it uses American models.
American models with their 38DD boobs.
I’m not like them!! I will not look as good in something so clingy cos it’ll only show what I lack instead of what I have!!
But, I was willing to try…. But they didn’t have stock of the pieces u like.
So, what now? We wait for a few months for the stock to arrive?
Then what about this month??
So I went shopping yesterday after work. Tried on many, many pieces.
Finally settled on 2 that I thot was nice…. I bought 2, not just 1!!
Took a black, and another white+red. I thot 1 black for a sexy look and 1 white+red for a not as sexy but more demure look.
And what did u say about them?
“Oh, its ok but its transparent!” u said about the black piece with it’s matching black lacy G-String.
And u look at the white+red with such repulsion, it was as if I bought a cotton T-shirt with teddy bears on them! U look like I was choking u with that piece.
So I told u, “If u don’t like it, I can change it to something else.”
And u said, “Yes, pls take it back. Please change it…….”
And u had to add, “Obviously we have such different tastes. This is not nice!! It’s not even a nice colour…. I mean, it’s white wt an ugly red for Heaven’s sake!!”
Thanks. Just thanks a million for your support.
Thanks a million for appreciating my effort.
Thanks a million for all this while buying me tonnes of lingerie to suit YOUR taste and make me know what u like.
Thanks for pointing out the “nice” ones while we were shopping last weekend so I know what u like.
Thanks a million for making me feel like an absolute fool.
And for what? For 10 mins in that lingerie? U know very well u’ll want it removed in less than 10 mins. So what was all that fuss for?
And u know what, u don’t even make an effort for yourself!! U wear ugly singlet and old shorts, and expect to look so hot in them and make me get turned on! Did I fuss? Did I ask u to buy something to make yourself look better and then scorn at it, like u did to me??
Why is it the women that have to dress up and look good for the men? Why can’t it be equal? And for just 10 mins in that stupid fuckin lingerie, u made it feel like I had such awful taste.
Well sorry if I cant read your mind. Sorry if u don’t have the guts to walk around malls looking at lingerie and therefore don’t point out what u like, so I can buy it. I’m not a mind reader. I know I’m not sexy enough for u to get turned on by just looking at me. And now I know I have such awful taste in clothes too.
If I had my way, I’ll just do an IUI. I don’t need all this Baby Dance “at the right time” every month, cos I’m not good enough for u!!!
If I could get pregnant without your help, I’ll just go for the IUI this month itself!!
But I’ll just let it be for this month. To Hell with it! Screw it!! I don’t need to put myself down in order to have a baby. Don’t u know, mood and emotions affect everything?!!! If I am down, THERE WILL BE NO BABY!!!! Your mind and body needs to be ready for it to happen!
So screw it. We’ll do IUI next time. U can look at some porn, and shoot into a cup. That’ll be all. Thank you.

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