Why is it so easy for some?

I'll admit it, I'm terribly jealous of those who can conceive so easily. Why is it we read about the 16-year old who had sex for the very first time with her boyfriend, and got pregnant, and then had to drop out of school etc to look after that unplanned baby? Is it "luck" on their side?


When you drill down into the details of "getting pregnant", you realise that timing is everything. Timing, good swimmers, a non-hostile environment down there, and a good lining for implantation. Now tell me, how did that 16-year old get everything so right in our eyes? (And so wrong in the eyes of others!!)


I've a friend who conceived her first in the first month of trying, and the second in the 2nd month of trying. Wow wee, how lucky!! If I'd known that it would be so hard for me, I would've tried from the get-go, and saved so much $$$ cos I wouldn't have bought condoms!!


People used to tell me - "Dont plan. Dont mess wt God cos then God will mess with you." In other words, when you want, God wont give. Is this true? Is this our punishment for planning that we didnt want kids yet in the first 2 years of our marriage? It's pretty sad then.....


So I hope God is listening now cos I want a child. I want to get pregnant, I want to have a healthy baby in my belly and hold that baby in my arms.... I never thought that it would be this tough, and it's worse emotionally! It's depressing, having to go to a specialist, having everything out in the open, getting scanned to check on follicles, uterine lining... Using a Ovulation Predictor Kit for LH surge etc! What happened to "letting things happen when they happen?"


Ain't gonna be that way for me......